i left school today after lunch. i couldn't stand to be in the building any longer. oh it's terrible how self-destructive i'm being these days. it's been raining for what seems like weeks now and i've begun to fade into my surroundings somewhat. i'm feeling heavy, grey and apprehensive.

today i looked inside my skin. i peered underneath and saw that nothing was new. nothing has changed, i'm still the same flesh and blood as always.