i don't know how to do this. i need you. i'm just tired. i got a letter from you. i'm sorry i haven't sent any yet. i've written, i'm just so awful at following through. my cousin is upset because she can only see her boyfriend once a week and i'm so jealous. i love the cd you made but it makes me cry every time so it's hard to listen to. i don't know if we're even going this weekend. chuck and i want to even if the cds aren't here (which they won't be) but ben said we're not going so i'm not sure what's really happening. I'm at a loss for words. I want to wake up to your open eyes and kiss you. I'm a mess without you.